What to do with all this life?

So the semester is over. Good. Finally. Let me have some peace now. But why? Why couldn't I have some of that peace then? Or better better yet, why do I have to long for breaks and holidays to catch my breath and relax? This semester has been a very difficult four months. Besides being ripped out of my comfort zone, a day's drive from friends and family, and starting anew in a culture so very ,very different than my own (all my decision, I know), a number of setbacks and trials were thrown at me, all of which I had no control over and had to go 'over the falls' so to speak. Being pounded with 'stuff' one after the other takes it's toll on you. One of those things is my grandfather passing away suddenly and me not being able to make it to the funeral in November. The feelings left were ones of openness and wondering. Not having closure is not a thing I don't recommend. But what it did allow, was the feeling of 'feeling' to enter in a way that I had never experienced before. It was like things became real in a stale, monotonous world. Like when I was coming home from Miami the temperature dropped thirty degrees between stops at one point. I was dressed for Miami but was in a cold and very different place. Just like my life, it was very apparent that the status quo became undesirable.
In the book of John it talks about this crowd of people who were following Jesus around, most likely at the time because he had just fed them and had plenty of leftovers. But then Jesus told them that the bread that they were getting and had been eating there whole life (status quo) was not good enough, that they needed a new bread, fresh bread from heaven, which of course was Jesus. And this is how our life is supposed to be. In a previous blog I wrote how change is going to happen no matter what and that it's best to role with it. To me status quo = boring. I'm tired of watching the same shows, not reading as much, spending less time with friends and people who I've lost touch with, not blogging as much, eating the same food (even though maduros and desmenuzada are a culinary dream), not sleeping outside enough, not surfing enough, spending way too less of a time in the Word, not telling people about Jesus, not picking up the phone or skyping, not holding enough doors, not riding my bike more, forgetting how to fish, not seeing what's under the ocean, not owning a recycling tee shirt, not building enough surfboards and one day giving one away, and perfecting that one recipe that makes you known for. it Oh and not writing this all down in Moleskine notebook (Chad gave me the idea).
So I say go out and do what you want to. Just know that you're sustained with Jesus and no matter how hard you hit the ground, it's not hard enough.


~Woot


by the way it's John 6 if you're wondering