It's what's Inside

Yay for cliche titles>>>>>>>>>I paddled out the over the weekend with a friend in sideshore chop. Big out of the South. Chunky. Fun. At least I thought. I enjoy power in waves, which is exactly what this was. I happen to have the perfect board for the conditions. After a while my friend and I got separated as often happens. However a guy that I had seen before but didn't know his name paddled up to me and started describing the surf to me. Except he was having a different experience than me.

"This (insert any four letters you would like here and then 'ing') sucks"

Such a small sentence, but revealing so much. Not about the surf, everyone could observe the conditions. But with that statement he revealed more than he probably realized. You see, it only makes sense that what comes out of you is what is also what's inside you. And it's not just the words we say it goes beyond that. Our actions reveal just as much, probably more, about us than our words. You can comb the Bible and find versus about fruit, overflowing hearts, and deeds so it's not just me.

But what I really want to get at is that these utterances of word and action do not just go out as such but actually have an effect on others around. After the sesh I was talking to my friend ans he noticed the same thing from that guy. He actually knew him. What happened that day was those few words killed the vibe in the water. Yes I know that most talk in the line-up is usually like this. But not this day there was something different. And it died with him.

If we take this concept and break it down to simpler a smaller form you can see how it affects each one of us individually. I feel I have a pretty good filter on what I say. This did not come naturally. I actually have had to work very hard at learning what not to say (I still often don't know what to say). What I've realized is that that, like every other type of filter, it has to be cleaned. When you listen to the things inside that don't quite make it to the outside, you start to realize what is actually hidden deep inside. And though others may not know exactly what's inside of you, it's still quite weird to hear you 'talk' and then you 'listen', if that makes any sense. So I guess my question is, what are you telling yourself? And is that a good thing? But what I really believe is that what comes out that is caused by what is inside can be remedied by what goes in.